Sexism within Engineering classrooms....

Lets talk about things I hate strongly dislike; 

I really hate bugs and ugly insects, may God forgive me but I do hate them. 

I hate being disappointed.

I hate being sad/feeling guilty

I hate being sick 

I hate when ignorant close minded people try to make a legit argument with me even though what I say is irrelevant to them and will not change their view no matter what. 

Most importantly I hate racism, sexism etc

as you may already know, I am a muslim hijabi (scarfed) living in the most islamophobic country in the world-America...so as that life can already be difficult for many. But thankfully I have very thick skin and people usually change their minds ones they get to know me. 

I am also a civil and environmental engineering majored FEMALE. enough said. knowing that its 2012 and its been years since females have lost their lives and fought for just being heard, still nothing seems to have changed the mind of some males. all theyve learned to do was SAY they "accept, respect, cherish, value" females opinions. Nothing but talk. 

of course I said SOME men not all, as I am not trying to come off as a hypocrite talking about sexism towards females and being sexist toward males. 

I do believe that there are somethings men are better at that women- (ie hunting a woolly mammoth) but at the same time there are somethings females are better at than the male race. However, even-though this is whith most it doesn't happen with ALL. these "stereotypes" varry depending on the individual. 

Almost ALL the males ive had classes with (all my engineering classes) have "looked" down on us females, and always ALWAYS expected us to do worse because we are "stupider"...that is until the marks come out and those few males that get pissed and angry and swear its unfair all because A GIRL  did better than him. 

I had many incidence like this, just recently after I got a lab-report back (which I worked extremely hard on) a male friend of mine was so eager to know what my grade was (they're always eager to know your grades in order to compare your stupidity with their "bad luck") and after he saw my grade and lab which was way more done than his, all he said with an angry tone was that "the grader likes girls"    WHAT?!?!, are u serious? so if im a female and I do better than a male its because the professor  or grader likes girls more, yet if you do better its because your smarter? get out of here!

it really such a sucky feeling when people dont even LISTEN to your opinion, for example if a guy asks a question and you have an answer and his friend doesn't and no matter how much YOU explain it they will assume your wrong and not take you seriously. or if your having an argument with a male and HE IS wrong and your not the others males will believe his argument over yours. for example I was having an argument about Islam to this other Muslim male which happens to be in engineering classes, clearly what he was stating was WRONG. yet somehow, the listeners (also 2 males) believe him over me and they just wanted to end the argument saying its okay and they were laughing and not taking me seriously I even caught one of the males winking at this muslim to stop just so the argument would stop, and of course being the strong female that I am I made sure I called him out saying that I saw his winking. we ended the argument by saying we will ask the sheikh on the Thursday night lecture held in our university. I made sure to let him know that I WILL NOT forget about it and we will ask it in front of everyone including the majority of male muslims there. later on that night after a few hours he texted me with "you were right, I asked my sister and she was actually married before he saw her hair I just got confused" so no need to embarrass him on Thursday. I appreciate his honesty but I do not appreciate that he made me look like an idiot in fornt of the non-Mulsim males and did not appreciate that he did not go out of his way to make sure they get the right truthful answer to their question rather than believing a lie...which is very serious when it comes to Islam. 

I can go on for hours about the events that I have encounter being a female in engineering not to mention the professors and staff. this makes me so angry but motivates me more to work harder so they can be even angrier that me "just a female" is getting higher grades than them ;)

xoxo-SL

my addiction to a book....(A Thousand Splendid Suns review)

When I was in senior year of high school, one of my most looked up to teachers had said to me "You should read A Thousand Splendid Suns". I was extremely happy that SHE the beautiful blond haired, intelligent, bitchy and lets face it-hot English teacher had suggested this to ME out of all students (she saw how much I enjoyed The Kite Runner- Also by the same author). "It is in my top 10 Favorite books, defiantly in the top 3" she continued. That last sentence was all she needed to convince me that I MUST read this book. 

3 years later I found myself in a book store inside a shopping mall in Dubai, U.A.E , as I was walking to the register to pay, "That book" jumped out at me- not literately but you know what I mean....and I just HAD to get it.  I started reading another book and was too lazy to start reading this book...I came back to the US and not till this month that I have decided to start it....and let me tell you I HAVE NEVER read a book faster in my life. I have managed to finish all 448 pages within 4 days. Not just ANY 4 days, actually it was in the week where I had nothing but engineering exams (the week before spring break). How did I do it? I have no idea.

I would stay up later at night (as I was up late anyways to study) just to read it, until my brain can no longer focus that is. I would wake up earlier than I had to and read it. I would read it at work at the office and get annoyed when a client comes by. I was too excited to go to English class since its soooo pointless (and ironically filled with all engineering majored student) just so that I could read during our 50 min. Usually, its 50 min of my life wasted listening to pointless crap, more like hearing pointless crap not listening. I would also walk from class to class my head down reading, friends and strangers poked fun of me of course but I could careless about them, I was too busy trying to figure out Laila's next move in the book. 

 It was just.......uhh! no words can explain how Amazing this book is. I cant get over it....its sooooooooooooo WONDERFUL, CRAZY, SAD, CAPTURING, EMOTIONAL, SPECTACULAR, and most of all ADDICTIVE. I can go on forever about it, but I defiantly suggest it to all of you out there.

Khaled Hosseini is a genius....I cant wait till he comes out with more and more books! im getting excited just thinking about it. 

WARNING: (if you read this book)

• You willl cry like a baby.
• You will laugh. 
• You will smile.
• You will get extremely angry at times- sometimes even at the author of the book.
• You will think about the characters everywhere you go. 

Unless you are a cold-hearted bitch with an ice cube in the place of your heart. You might want to consider the warnings above ;)

hope all of you are doing well!
 

xoxo-SL

New video about my trip to Dubai

xoxo-SL

Back in America

Hello lovelies (: 

I am back to America, I had an amazing time in UAE!! I was planing to blog while I was there...however I forgot my blog password and I did not take my laptop (which has the password stored haha) 

I did  A TON of shopping!!!!! and a lot of tourist things, I took picx but most of the time I kept forgetting my camera either at home or in the car :( such a loser I am huh?

so heres a list of things I did there: 

-Visited Al-ain 

-Went on a desert safari

-Did khaliji henna

-Went to an all girls beach <3

-Bought a realllyyy AMAZING abaya

-Recied a ton of gifts from loved ones

-Went around the desert in a camel 

-Got a bunch of Arabic/khaliji CD's

-Went around the whole Dubai in the metro (haha took forever) 

-Eat all types of yummy foods of different cultures, especially the Arabic part (my mouth is watering as im writing this)

-I saw an a person of my past, that I needed to see and I feel that I had moved on past that situation in drama due to this meeting with this person! feels soooooo ahhhhhhhh!!!

-Bought Louis Vuitton speedy (FINALLYYYY) 

-Bough this amazing kaftan in purple which I am in love with 

-Purchaced and starting reading this amazing book

-I also bought some new makeup, and recieved an arabic perfume as a gift (so sweet)

ANNNNDDD I also met some AMAZING people, I love them all, got to learn so much from the UAE culture...seriously Emiraty people are some of the nicest sweetest people you just have to get to know them first before judging, sommeeee locals might seem as show offs and stuck up. but trust me, just get to know them and they will be soooo honored you came to their country and will go way out of their way to make sure you have an amazing stay in UAE ;) PRICELESS

ps.I will post picx soon!

On my way to Dubai!

Hey all, 

just a little update...classes are  overrrrr, my GPA went down to a 3.2 now :( so bummed about it but than again I AM  a third year student in the Engineering major with two jobs and I am involved in 6 different clubs so Im very proud of myself!

usually there are students who are still in there second year with out a job not involved in anything and their GPA is way lower than a 3.2 so not going to stress it, but than again I want to compare myself to the geniuses with a 3.9 instead of the people with a 1.9 lol.

Ive worked REALLLYY hard this semester, therefore I decided to give myself a wonderful vacation!!!!!!!!

somewhere warm, far and exotic and I also want to see loved ones, soooooo I though there is no  better destination than UAE! I heading to the airport in about 2 hours, I will be going to Amsterdam for a few hours and than to dubai I shall be there at 12 AM 2012!!! happpy new years everyone <3 I WILLL POST videos and TONS of picx no worries :)

Cyber monday ELF haul

Sooo I just received my ELF order from cyber Monday! boy was I excited, they had EVERYTHING %50 so I decided to do a a little shopping here is what I bought: 

First I got this brush holder that has their logo on it, its so classy yet simple I really like it, by far my favorite item in this whole haul

 I got four nail polishes, (from right) Lilac, Light Pink, Passion Pink, and Nude

 Bronzer and Highlight

Lip brush and Eyebrows' wand

 Face (makeup) mist

 Concealer

 Face Primer

Setting Powder

 Eyebrow Kit

 Purple eye pencil (I LOVE THIS PHOTOOOOO)

And last but not least, face highlight thingy :)

So this stuff I just go tonight, so I did not get to try them out, but I will tomorrow and will keep you guys updated how I like/dislike each product etc. the only thing I tried were the purple and light pink nail polish and I LOVE THEMMM soooo much! ELF has such good nail polishes I swear! 

X0X0-SL

decorating your room with flowers!

Hey, so recently Ive became really into flowers, and plants that are rich in color. and this is why I purchased this purple beautifullll flower for my room

I think it makes your place look fresh, stylish and brings out some color which makes the whole room look better, key things that pop out in a boring room or space can really make a difference.

So go out get yourself some cute flowers with an amazing color and place it in an area that is "boring" or simply anywhere in your room and you will notice  the difference seriously! cant wait to buy more, but not too much since I want a room not a garden lol   

X0X0-SL